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biggest mistake.

 23rd August. 


I have no idea what's the silver lining -  definitely the shittiest thing that ever happened to me after my ex-crush likes somebody else. maybe, I got to write this entry and journal the worst episode of me, overthinking about how lovely it would be if it was him and me. 


 I'm currently at the beginning of my final weeks and suddenly today, my laptop decided to leave me for Hawaii. I met some of the university computer technicians and they legit don't want to take risk since my laptop is the newest among newest. like excuse me, I paid that for rm 5k with my OWN money as 10 years-road-to-advanced-architect investment. I picked from one of the famous brand of all  and only got to use it for 5 months?? are u kidding me like on my final week???? now my friends are rushing with their final submissions and I bet they're gonna finish it by the week, while me, waiting for my spare parts from Dell within 3 weeks since the laptop is made in Saudi - like how in the world the laptop background sounds so high quality but they shitttttt??


with that being said I must admit that I feel a bit useless; I feel like I've graduated this short sem. all of informations, assignments are in that device. and I couldn't even turn it on. now how am I supposed to do my finals that all important drawings are trapped inside thereeeee?!!!!!! 


apart from the laptop I'm now listening to Wali- Doaku untukmu sayang and I wanna cry like nobody. it somehow relates so much. oh well, it's quite impressed how I once can love someone the heaven haven't sure about. and I  still do- 


I hope he knows how I liked him so much, unconditionally. but if it best to be this way then, I hope we both will be happier insyallah. :) 

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