🦋 It's Raihana & no one else 🦋

 2nd May 2023, Tuesday.  It was class time and I had to go to the toilet. I suddenly noticed my best friend's text while I was doing my job in the boring and mundane cubicle, asking me to help her create a letter for her lecturers due to her absence. Her grandmother was very ill that she needed to extend her stay in Singapore.  I am that one who loves to disappear during class time. Not because I don't like certain classes, but because I am easily get distracted. I need fresh air and some sunlight to recharge my focus so I could pass this hell-journey course. So I was planning to sit somewhere, KAED level 2 corridor might sounds good as it is facing the courtyard, the height somehow brings me to nature in a comfortable distance, with the morning ray casted and filtered by 2 levels above - makes the temperature at the corridor is as cozy to be stayed for a quite of time.  To the corridor I went and seated, crossing my leg and started to think of formal words to be wri...

March 25th. One thing that no one will ever ask, but tonight sounds so melancholic, with my ears now stuffed with " Melancholy" from Spotify. Life is currently so sad.  I am alone - with realisation of that particular one who might accept me more than I do to myself? But what am I doing now? Break his heart is the only specialty I'm good at.  I slowly noticed how some faces are just masks they put on. Yet you are to spare forgiveness and acceptance for them as it's part of their "survival".  I hate it when people mock my opinion and don't take my words seriously.  I am exhausted of being selfless for those who dont even know how to appreciate. I am burning out, for too tightly holding on to myself and the things they considered as dignity and pride.  I want cry my heart out when they told me they have spaghetti, and I was all starved for it, but then they ate it without any guilts. I feel bad, when that one old lecturer who favours me fell sick because I...

  tinggal sendiri ruang ini punya aku dan Tuhan -R, 21; punya Dia.

  kugemar senja bertemu malam kita boleh mimpi perkara kita damba -R, 21; tanya kau.

  adakah kau masih peduli tentang rindu semalam yang berbaki -R, 21; bekalan esok

  put your hand into mine pass the fire to burn I desire  for this soul crave to exist  once again -R,21; timeless 

  my heart shatters over and over to feel you again -R, 21; letting it till it can't.