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🎂 bday countdown~

4 sept 2021, sat.


 3 hours left before my birthday: honestly, as I grow up, the excitement of celebrating birthday started to fade slowly and instead of hoping for scrumptious birthday cake from my loved ones, I'll take my 1st step to spend my money on them. wouldn't that be better, to spend on something that can last be a man's mudghah? 


last year, I spent my birthday at campus and how pathetic that I didn't really make friends with anybody else because we just enrolled the campus on the early August- so what to expect in just a month to have somebody wishing for you? hence I just bought some waffles using my money (yea I looked so lonely hahahaha) and then distribute it to my close fellas. also, I got some sweet wishes via social medias and that's how last year went.


this year, I was planning to just order something from KFC for I've been craving this since I was in campus. plus, my mum and I just finished rearrange the furniture in our rooms thus there's a lot of things need to be bought from outside. but, I'm not sure if my mum really want to go out tomorrow because she's kinda paranoid about Covid. 


on the last 3 weeks I've also been dreaming to have my own customed vintage cake that I even prepared a draft of it. my mum has that one friend, a very good baker named Auntie Kama and I believe that some of you might know her, she's legit my mother's bestfriend. however, her beloved husband just passed away 2 weeks ago if I'm not mistaken therefore, to make auntie Kama feel even more sad had never been on my dictionary. 😢


back to the topic where I don't really feel delighted to celebrate my birthday, I would like to pass my warm thank you to all the people who wished to congratulate me for making it happen to 19 🥰 like seriously I keep praying to God to just let me appreciate the 5th September every year by my own, no need to burden anyone etc etc. all in all, thank youu so much from the bottom of my heart eventhough some of the wishes are just pretends, I'll remain me don't worry. 😂💞


 semoga Raihana menjadi seorang yang bermanfaat. semoga dia dipanggil ketika dia sudah bersedia. semoga dia dimatikan dalam keadaan husnul khatimah. semoga dia dimasukkan kedalam syurga tanpa hisab. sesungguhnya, azabNya amatlah dahsyat. 


amin. ☺️☺️☺️


*disclaimer: I might sleep early tonight for I am so exhausted angkat2 katil lepastu besi2 dia boleh pulak jatuh atas kaki memang padu 😋 my mom described the incident as " cayang kangkung ". okay bye. 







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