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making gold 🌛

 yolo it's already day 3 of me not updating anything on my what'sapp, I used to make status every single day, just to you know, to inform my loved ones about my condition, share the things I do etc etc. I don't know but I kinda started to feel like I lost myself just to please other people. mana tak nya, I myself genuinely express my big heart yet some of them take this for granted. 

Even more disgusting is when I feel judged, ill-watched & envied. yo, I don't usually do this to all people except for my close friends so be sure to count you blessing to be in my circle. 

i know taking advices from our surroundings is good thing but it's not a good thing man to be asked to be somebody else. oh well, I don't really love to talk much because we've known enough how people these days hate reading. 

actually I just want to write here that my birthday will be on this Sunday so I wonder does my crush knows about it or maybe... is he going to do something spectacular like send me some bouquets of flowers and a box of chocolates.. or he might set a firework on the sky near my house... and I will be very grateful even if he texts me hello and then reply " sorry I wrote in the wrong room" 😚 

also, to those who told me to move on or gave me 1001 reasons to walk away, or any other things that don't really look like against my way but it actually does, bold of you to think that I'm actually gonna do it. even my mum often give up on me (that is how hard my stone head is, don't you dare to mention the heart.) hence you guys should too. stop telling me what to do and what's not unless, it's my will to open up my ears and my heart then that's that. 

yea it's such a bitter fact about me that I'm that kind of person who don't easily give up. so don't try to make fun of my temper hahahaha let me tell you a secret that you can trust whatever I deny from my sisters actually. HEHEH I might look chill and fun, and betul lah tu HAHAHAHAAH ARE YOU GUYS ACTUALLY READ THIS IN SERIOUS TONE OR WHAT? 


okay bye



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