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As reckless as I could.

 26 October 2022, padre's birthday.


\\ It's vital for you to turn on Peterpan's Mungkin Nanti before indulging into this entry//


Currently having my time, though I have tons to be think of; 1. Heritage, since I am one of the group leaders. It's never sounds easy to handle 25 people to go oversea ya know. 2. Design, I did some research about our upcoming furniture project for RnR before asr today and cant wait to vomit the idea on butter paper trrow. And 1 last thing is the stupid folder I need to prepare for Journalism Club (clap hands everyone) for we'll be having a workshop soon this Saturday but I'm planning to ask the program manager trrow night, REHEARSAL. 

I know I often prioritize my schedule but there's always reason why things were so better back then., maybe because I wrote a lot. So indeed I am here because I am in need of this, I have to write this story. 

From my previous post where I spilled there was this one guy who likes me, now let me tell you that I dont like him!!!!! - But not that I hate him, the other day I thought it would be very offensive for me to say this direct, maybe I could explain myself in poems, but mann I have no time for that. I love poems as much as I love myself, there is no other way to write it without any proper calculations and determinations. So, take it. I'm not in the same energy.

My mom likes him a lot. She legit evaluates his value for telling his parents about me and she reacts differently compared when I story tell her my on the list scandals, so yep, I acknowledged that. You might want to ask, why I'm not in the same boat, here's some things:

1. He's polite. Very soft-spoken. - We were in one group previous semester and my friend described that people would actually fall for him just by listening to his voice in a phone call ..........

2. A good student, yupp on your Dean's list. - The recent Dean's list ceremony my mom was quite delighted ya to see him and. they. even. smiled. at. each. other. from. far. :))) padahal tak kenal kannnnnn eiyhhhh.

eh wait let's hope he's not going to read my blog lahh HAHAHAHAAHAH 

3. Very generous. He paid some treats during our group iftar. (God I have lots to spill, but I'm afraid that he's really be going to read my entryyyyyy HAHAHAAHAH)

4. Cute, I bet some of you might say he's handsome (cuz my mom does)  hahahahahahaha he has that 90s aesthetic aura - I still remember during foundation he was quite famous and the first time I saw him on my friend's status I was like " oh cute. " uhcybuchbudbhsa

5. He plays guitar and piano? - There were some nights during semester 2 where he played me some of my favourite songs with his guitar hahahahahahah ya Allah I was so embarrassed cuz he sat right beside me and singggggggggg AND OUR STUDIO IS WHERE THE WHOLE BATCH ISSSSS SO EVERYONE DID LISTENEDDD. 

6.  I'm not sure but it has to do something with his one attitude where he wouldn't believe any rumors, at. all. - Some of my friends spilled to him that I like somebody else and he IS NEVER GOING TO FALL IN THAT RABBIT HOLEEEEE EVEN ONCE. 

Yep, he's quite perfect right but what the hell is my stupid reason you may be wondering, well now that we are not in the same class anymore, but his section is just right beside my section and every night when we do our design there, he will come and sit somewhere near me. 

There was this one night where he came and LET ME TELL YOU I DID TRY TO ACCEPT HIM AS BEST AS I COULD, but he said something that I think it was quite unfortunate for him if it was the real thing; he told that as if the dots I've been connecting with my friends about him were all false. 

Man, I'm an ENFJ, a very passionate one, and I'm gladly to introduce myself as a transparent communicator. I do appreciate if people could just lay down the fortress and say what they really mean. I won't judge. But now that you're hastily telling me that everything is merely a dream then, I will tell you that IT IS - if your really want me to, and I seriously don't mind to be the first to walk away. 


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I think that's it for this episode, though I have lot more stories to share but this entry is solely dedicated for this one. Definitely going to be part of my wonderful experiences for sure. May Allah guide us towards the right people insyallah - he is the right one, but for now. :)


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