glory, a poem.

Give it a chance

31st May 2026, It's supposedly cuti seminggu sebab Rayaji and somewhat bday Agong kot (Agong pls dun b offended kalau salah), tapi I had to balik ke UIA awal sebab gelabah lagi 2 minggu nak final. Hi there, it's me again, Raihana. To be honest I am really having my butt burning right now sebab masa gonna be sangat suntuk for me to finish the damn dissertation, design presentation and ethics. But tonite I think I'm just gonna sketch je kot. EEEE I cannot susun words rite now or even to think about it. But, Give it a chance, Raihana, how cikgu2 sekolah kau dulu bg kau chance utk kau pidato masa sekolah rendah, then jadi best debater during sekolah menengah, lepast kau lead everything during your university... semua waktu yang kau rasa prime and rindu sangat tu, all started by giving chances to yourself from the first place.. Now, aku tahu you might feel sangat tak fit in taking tis masters. And malaikat jadi saksi how hard the journey for you so far.. Everyday kau pun da...

Called her mine.

22nd August 2023 She was somehow a Lebanese.. perhaps an Arab.. whose kind soul was the warmth of the friendship between my family and her. Her husband, was caught dead while protecting the country, he was a brave, fine soldier. And this woman, she had that big eyes and a pointy nose. Her hair was nearly curl and it is in light brown. She was a doctor and somehow people are so greed for heaven that they got her killed. In that dream, she was a good friend of mine. " You take her! " was her last word to me, for her first born. The little angel was just born and knew nothing. Not even she could recognize her mother. So I called her mine.. That time was as if I am an independent adult, alone, and ready to spend my life for the little girl. I brought her everywhere and taught her to laugh. She has that bright, big smile and that cheeks, light pink shades whenever she sees me. Her eyes blue and, she is mine. I remember...

🎂 bday countdown~

4 sept 2021, sat. 3 hours left before my birthday: honestly, as I grow up, the excitement of celebrating birthday started to fade slowly and instead of hoping for scrumptious birthday cake from my loved ones, I'll take my 1st step to spend my money on them. wouldn't that be better, to spend on something that can last be a man's mudghah? last year, I spent my birthday at campus and how pathetic that I didn't really make friends with anybody else because we just enrolled the campus on the early August- so what to expect in just a month to have somebody wishing for you? hence I just bought some waffles using my money (yea I looked so lonely hahahaha) and then distribute it to my close fellas. also, I got some sweet wishes via social medias and that's how last year went. this year, I was planning to just order something from KFC for I've been craving this since I was in campus. plus, my mum and I just finished rearrange the furniture in our rooms thus there's ...

About marriage..

It seems so sudden but I really2 in need to write my heart out, things been so janggal and I just dun feel comfortable, thinking about, I dunno - I'm currently 23 and as we all know tis is the weirdest era of transition where it cud be both - single & married. I received lots of questions that now quiet common for tis age; " when will u get married? ", " are u currently seeing somebody? ", " are we getting to eat nasi minyak sooner? ". I'm not sure whether to worry if I dun have anyone, or if I do, have someone! Another common question is " at what age are u planning to settle things up? " - to be honest, I dunno. I just.. don't know; am I the one who's supposed to go to my future husband's house and ask for his hand in marriage? - ofc not!. So, it's not my decision of dat " when ", it shud be the concern of my future husband. But when? I think I'm just gonna write what'll work for me just so lat...

Seeking back my wild spirit for finals // sem 2 of degree.

24th April 2022, Sunday - prepping for the very 1st crit of semester 2 tomorrow (Monday) and I hate my concept - like it can be better, I was hoping for comments that can help me develop my design but my lecturer seemed to just love everything. He only said "yes" when I explained 2 design concepts and contrary to any of my acceptance of approval before this, I am quite lost; getting thirstier for instructions. And yep, I am still here, having my face glued on the lappy screen, writing my own thoughts on blog while doing and reading some research about the similarities between the European housing because ----- Okay this is the story, we are given a site, and we are to interview a client based on professions & themes the faculty has assigned us - My site is located at the coconut orchard, with a very old-fashioned lifestyle happening in the community there, the existence of a traditional Malay house, nipah-made homestays, and chicken coop as the contexts. I am to do a ge...

PMS never felt this awful.

March 25th. One thing that no one will ever ask, but tonight sounds so melancholic, with my ears now stuffed with " Melancholy" from Spotify. Life is currently so sad. I am alone - with realisation of that particular one who might accept me more than I do to myself? But what am I doing now? Break his heart is the only specialty I'm good at. I slowly noticed how some faces are just masks they put on. Yet you are to spare forgiveness and acceptance for them as it's part of their "survival". I hate it when people mock my opinion and don't take my words seriously. I am exhausted of being selfless for those who dont even know how to appreciate. I am burning out, for too tightly holding on to myself and the things they considered as dignity and pride. I want cry my heart out when they told me they have spaghetti, and I was all starved for it, but then they ate it without any guilts. I feel bad, when that one old lecturer who favours me fell sick because I...

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