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1st day keluar rumah after 7 minggu captived in my humble crib

7 Ramadan 2020,
1st day keluar rumah after 7 weeks terperangkap,
Smiled at literally everyone. 🥰

Semalam, alhamdulillah, Umi told us that dah boleh keluar rumah berdua!!!! So i begged Umi to take me out, i can help angkat2 barang dapur, or apa2 je but please please please bring me see the light of the day. 

" barang dapur pun dah habis, kalau dah boleh keluar berdua, ha jomlah esok pergi Ramly. "

Sejak pkp ni, Papa je selalu beli barang dapur. Tapi since my father is working dengan something related to perhubungan, jadi masa PKP ni beliau sangat2 la diperlukan. Selamani, o/station 3 hari je, 3 hari kerja balik petang, and 1 hari cuti whole day (ya u might want to scream at me ha tengok pengorbanan sang ayah! ). Tapi PKP ni, dia kena o/station 4-5 hari and 1 hari cuti, 1 hari lagi balik time berbuka je & pergi kerja balik lepastu balik tengah malam.

Disclaimer: Cikgu2 al mahbuuuub, pengetua sekolah mahupun bekas pengetua sekolah, cikgu akademik mahupun cikgu deeniah and friends yang selalu suruh saya bawa ayah datang sekolah tu, yang selalu tanya mana ayah, selalu tanya ayah kerja apa sebab tak pernah nampak, yang cakap ayah ni orang obersea/mix, yang asyik cakap muka saya ni sama dengan muka ayah tak sebab nak bayangkan macam mana muka ayah, ha ni ni. My father is so busy cari rezeki 🙏😬 and ya he's original javanese kot rasanya takde mix (untuk genetik yang terdekat la) like obviously u can see it from his face, that Jawa is what dominant. 

So sebab asyik kerja je, selalunya papa pulun la beli barang dapur on the day dia cuti betul2 1 hari tu je. Nak keluar pun kena banyak kali sebab kadang tu kedai takde stok. Lepastu pikir la mcm mana dia nak angkut semua barang2 dapur nya dalam keadaan sorang. Family members pun bukan sikit. Bukan anak semua baby! Semua saiz ada! Adults? Infants? Kids? Ha. Jadi kalau papa o/station, and barang dapur habis, susah sikit la Umi nak buat sorang.

Alhamdulillah dah boleh keluar berdua. Aku sampai tak boleh tidur malam tadi terbayang2 keluar rumah tengok muka2 orang, tengok kereta2, tengok langit. Sampai nanes. 😂

So 1st things 1st my mom and i went to Ramly. Ramly ni macam dapur rumah sendiri. Setiap bulan beli barang dapur kat sini, self treat kat sini, sampai kita boleh tengok kronologi staff2 dia dari abang2 rumajah sekarang dah nak 30an. 😂😂😂😂 i bet kakak2 and abang2 kat situ pun tengok kitaorg dari sekolah rendah and now dah habis sekolah menengah dah.

Cerita nya, if your name is Raihana Shamsul, ada mak pak umur nearly half a century, username ig nur.reihanna, u probably have that abang dekat Ramly who loves to tease you but hell like an angel when your mum's around 🙄🙄🙄🙄 

Jadi lepas kitaorg dah sapu barang2 dapur, dah masuk kereta, tiba2 lori Gardenia baru sampai. Ha cantik la terus beli. Tunggu dalam 10 minit, pakcik Gardenia tak keluar2 pun masuk Ramly so umi suruh la aku masuk sendiri, dia tunggu dalam kereta.

That time, i already know that episode of Abang Ramly w/ no Umi around akan bermula sat lagi. Masuk2 je, aku tanya la abang tu (ya the one yang entahla malas nak cakap 🙄) sebab staff lain semua tengah susun2 stok.

" abang, lori gardenia tu nak hantar roti dekat sini ke? "

" ha ya kenapa "

" bila pakcik gardenia nya nak keluar? "

" ha tanya la pakcik tu. Tanya abang buat apa "

" cepat la bila pakcik nya nak keluar? "

" ha tunggu je la kat sini kalau esok pakcik tu keluar dari lori, ha esok la baru dapat " 

You know this is one of the reasons why i hate doing the shopping ALONE with my MOM WAITING AT THE CAR. Selamani to be frank with you, my mom always gets angry kalau aku yg do the shopping sebab tunggu lama sangat ( kat kedai2 lain ). Semuanya sebab abang2 yang nak ikat tepi ke, ikat mati ke ikatan yang sah? 🙄 i believe yang ni jadi dekat semua teenage girl but dont worry abang Ramly tu bukan yang macam ni tapi tula suka lambat2 🙄🙄 and everyone in the family can consider him kalau dia lambat cuz dah lama kenal kan. Plus he acts so innocent and decent in front of my mother hm.


I am annoyed, but im pretty much happy to see him sihat wal afiyat, the same feeling whenever i see people i know! Alhamdulillah. 🥰

I knew kalau tanya abang tu lagi, jawapan dia tu macam...tahun depan pun suruh aku tunggu lagi agaknya. so i saw a kakak tengah free so aku terus tanya dia bila pakcik gardenia tu nak keluar. Kakak tu so baik she said okay kejap ya adik nanti pakcik tu keluar adik duduk la dulu ya maaf ya dik. Dalam 10 minit, pakcik gardenia tu keluar. I was soooo happy nampak pakcik yang umur baya2 bapak aku angkat2 barang, penat, just to suap kita2 semua ni so aku bukak mask and senyum lebar22222222 dekat dia 🥰🥰🥰🥰  i thanked him sebab bawakkan roti ( mesti pakcik tu ingat aku tiru iklan gardenia but Wallah ni naturally pakcik! 😂)

Patutnya, lepas pakcik tu hantar stok, yang akan kemas2 roti2 tu staff2 kedai la kan. Tapi that pakcik did me a favour dia tanya sambil senyum balik ya Allah ikhlas nya weh senyum nya.. nak roti apa? 

" nak yang keping2 saiz besar tu ^^  "

Pakcik tu pun angkat yang bekas2 hitam tu kan, satu2 and cari roti aku nak. Dia tanya nak berapa aku cakap la 3 peket

Just in case u guys wanna attack me sbb amik roti banyak sangat: memang selalu amik banyak tu and kitaorg bukan family yang makan nasi pagi petang siang malam. Kitaorg bukan jenis family makan nasi, oh ada lauk. Kadang nasi pun makan sehari sekali je tu pun sebab papa yang nak makan nasi. Kalau dia takde, jarang la makan nasi. 😂 Lepastu Harraz ni jenis yang tak makan benda lain except roti, biskut and mee sup so.

Lepas pakcik tu pass 3 peket roti tu, dekat depan aku (ehem 1 meter 😜) ada macam atok2. Dia beli baaaanyak barang rasanya dia jual burger kot. Lepastu atok tu dah siap bayar and tengah masuk2kan barang dia dalam plastik. Aku pun letak la roti tu then abang tu ckp heh mana boleh 3 kena 2 je la. Aku pandang la SEMUA NOTIS dekat kedai tu ada ke cakap maksimum amik 2 sebab abang ni, sukar untuk dipercayai, suka main2 😌. Tapi takde pun notis. Lepastu aku jerit la kuat sikit tanya kakak tadi, betul ke amik 2 je, dia angguk. Lepastu atok depan aku tu dia cakap dekat aku ala amik je. Dah banyak dah stok roti sekarang. Jangan risau la. 

Lepastu abang tu replied, " eh eh pakcik ni yeye je. Mana pakcik tahu, mentang2 sebab dia awek 😂😂 " 

Lepastu atok tu pukul abang tu dengan plastik weh and pakcik gardenia, abang tu, staff2 kat situ dgn aku2 sekali gelak 😂😂😂😂 abang tu deserves it. 😂😂

Lepastu atok tu pandang la pakcik Gardenia tu and cakap, ha kau tak caya, kau tanya dia. Lepastu pakcik Gardenia tu kata, haah, tadi dah hantar dekat banyak tempat. Lepastu kakak tu cakap la, ha dahtu boleh berapa ni? Sambil pandang abang tu. Lepastu semua macam discuss boleh amik berapa. 😂 Abang tu pulak pandang atok tu, atok tu pula cakap kuat2 😂😂😂 kau amik je 3. Takde apa pun jadi, kan?. Sambil pandang pakcik Gardenia. Pakcik Gardenia tu sambut the oldie look from that atok and he nodded. So aku tanya abang tu, abang tu pun okayla 3, and terus scan.

Can you guys see it? Nooo bukan highlight abang tu.. nak highlight nya, bila suka senyum, murah rezeki kita. 😂🥰 Cikgu fizik aku selalu tanya, kenapa awak suka senyum, Raihana?

-sebab.. takde sebab untuk tak senyum
-ahli neraka tak senyum (mana ada orang happy masuk neraka)
-senyum dapat panjangkan silaturrahim, silaturrahim dapat murahkan rezeki dan panjangkan umur.

Wallahuaklam. 🧿 have a blessed ramadan everyone! 🌻

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