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He's there..

Huaaaaa i feel like my house is going to drown in a few minutes. I wanna cryyyyy 🥺🥺. I'm not going to make this as formal like usual. this entry is going to be extra special. So it needs to be different.

For all the times that i cried, thinking about what i lost; my very bestfriend and other things,. Indeed, God is the best film director. I love my life! I am REALLY BREATHING tonight! 😭😭😭

I always thought that i am alone. But... this night told me that i am not!! There is someone who watches everything i do. Listens to every word i say. And understands every act i play. I couldn't find the word he deserves to make him feel appreciated. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 🥺💗

This is a friend you guys should look forward to. Who is always there. Even when they know that u dont notice their existence. Been there before you even get started,. Never stop to give moral supports, oh my i am touched!! 😭 seriously angels like this dont deserve us.

Thank you. I hope i can do the same thing to make you feel how u made me feel. :,) oh no don't get me wrong. My girlfriends all are bomb! 😂😭🥺 but this one is something else. I dont know how the hell he pretends he doesn't know a thing but sooo updated even about tiny things. 😭 may human like this will always be under the protection of God. Amin.

-25th June 2020, A

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