🦋 It's Raihana & no one else 🦋

AAAAAAAAA dyou guys wanna know?? I had a magical and wonderful dream last nightttttt. If you're my sisters or my roomates, you know that i love love love to set a continuous alarm in the morning. 5.40 am, 5.50 am, 6.05 am, 6.15 am, 6.20 am and 6.25 am and each of these comes with my favourite One Direction song :3  So this morning, my spirit finally knows how to come back to its body. I woke up freshly at 6.25 am, and dont thank to my alarm, instead, to the prince charming i met in my dream.  (Wait at this right moment i am currently at cafe, the awkwardness seems demanding to be the king in my mind and thoughts for the abang cafe is waiting for me to be in front of the paying counter. 😖😖😖😖😖😖)  Okay what was it just now?? Ohhh the prince charming. Sooo i think i was blanketed by the demon's pee for i felt soooo lazy to wake up for fajr. (Dont copy the action, or you'll get the ticket to Jahannam in no time)  During my 5 minutes sleep (between 6. 20 to 6.25) , i...

  28 November 2020. If only you know How special  You are in my eyes  You would never Decide to go Out from this Heavenly paradise - if only, R, 18. 

 29 nov 2020.  Today my fellow brought my friends and i to some groceries shopping in Gambang. I have to admit that the town is kind of gloomy since it is surrounded by trees and jungles. There are a lot of buildings though but not as high as in my home sweet home, Klang. And most of the buildings are empty. I guess because half of the citizens here work in Selangor though. Hm.  Because of the pandemic Covid19, the university only allow 3 students to go out, so there went Zulaikha my roomate, Zulaikha my new roomate, and I. We sent our matric numbers and some biodata to the upper management and we were finally at the grocery store. There are only 19 students who chose to stay at the campus until the end of semester 2 next year, which is going to be conducted online. So 16 students who remained at the campus, texted us about the stuffs they wanted to buy.  Everyone wrote their desires in the whatsapp group i made before. But there were 2 students texted me personally ...

It is always increadible That every night on its darkest The sky still look the brightest How each of us Let the inner colours Mix with the universe And form a rainbow. -unfinished conversation, R, 18

I wonder if We can meet again It has been so long That i do not want This feeling to end Back to where we had began Around 5 pm or near the sunset That was actually dawn So these days will go on And never be gone. -until when? , R, 18. 

I am just the size of Eve Little, weak and somewhat unclear Only a room for a heart A room for laugter And two for tears But the day you were in front of my eyes this universe inside me  Growing horizonless And just then i realise How this love in this body is countless. - No boundaries, limitless of self rise until paradise. R, 18. 

  I have never Felt this way Where this heart of mine Pounds for you everywhere To the outside world  I explore And the trees  They talk so much more Of how much of you that i miss -Strange, but where are you? R, 21st of November 

Ayy that initial or i will kill u for good 😑😑😑

 18 nov 2020, day 3 of semester 1 break (3 wiks) The covid19 cases in my hometown, Klang is quite alarming. 100+ cases every single day has made Klang as one of the dangerous red zones in Malaysia. All of my friends from Terengganu, Kelantan, Perak and Pahang can happily go home but as for me, my father seemed that he wanted his daughter to survive alone in people's place and to do good.  It's day 3 of the break, luckily i have my roomate to accompany me until next year, February for semester 2 registration day. There are 5 levels in each hostel building. My room is on level 4. Either you trust me or not but legit there are NO ONE except at level 4 and level 5. But there are like 4 rooms with human beings inside in total.  Since my mom and my dad gave me no choice, i kinda excited to see how am i going to survive in this campus with no shops open, and only a cafe that close so early around 4 pm. I was quite sad seeing my friends wave me goodbyes day by day.  Yesterda...

 24th October 2020.  It's week 12 everyone and we are done with all the lessons that we are just a week away from final exam! Hundreds of food been eaten, lots of lipstick been used and tons of drawings been submitted.  Being this far, these are the common architectural people culture I've observed: 1. We are too vulnerable  2. THERE IS NO SHY SHY IN OUR DICTIONARY  3. Get used to rejection just like you get used to Corona 4. Keep on STANDING FOR YOUR OWN IDEA Last week my lecturer handed me some of the  BIGGEST drawings I've ever drawn in life and guess i got B+ for musolla interior i made. Let me tell you, the interior was inspired by the Sheikh Zayed mosque which probably you can tell, it is hell gorgeous of course!! But my lecturer did agree with that point, but for some reasons she gave me B+ is because I AM NOT TALENTEN IN DRAWING. LIKE LEGIT SOME OF THE THINGS IN THAT BUILDING LOOKS 2D INSTEAD OF 3D.  Another thing is, she asked me why did i did...

 4th October 2020, Sunday.  Tomorrow we are going to step in week 9 out of 12 weeks. It has been a white knuckle of everything that me at first was just a stupid young lady, learning sciences and now that i am here. Befriend with a bunch of lines from different countries, religions, races, shapes and sizes. From just an expert at drawing stick men, now i can build everyone's dream houses (no kidding!). I think this im already fit in here thank God for placing me here and indeed He knows best. I've been through a lot. I've met some good friends, bad friends. Compassionate teachers, cute guys and pretty everyone. To tell, (knowing that no one will ever want to read my pale blog except for Neena and maybe Hajar :P ) I've been eyeing on someone in my uni since day 1. He's so cute, so nice, and so energetic. I wonder what his mom ate when she was pregnant him?  (Oh God i wanna write details but somehow i think the probability for my university mates will find my blog is ...

Long time ago i owned your heart but I'm not sure about today? Either i lost it all, or you had taken them away? - last night dream, R, 17

Now i know Why you don't own any wings You are the angel But why I'm the one who is flying? -Alpha, R, 18. 

You are the stars That always shines In the darkest time of mine Now you made the Sun wonders.. Does she already reached beyond the universe? :) , there. -R, 18.

When you look at me I see stars And when you smile I feel high Kskskskskkeowopq0qqkwjnsbzb New- I'm clueless about How you can know me this well How you can fit every missing part in the chapter Hnamajwlwlwal2lappaemnr Mrjejsoosm J4eiiapap10qowjebsb f bznkz Again-     Why is it so hard to make poem about you?!!!!! You are the real definition That one is enoug Hmxmdkso bye

Huaaaaa i feel like my house is going to drown in a few minutes. I wanna cryyyyy 🥺🥺. I'm not going to make this as formal like usual. this entry is going to be extra special. So it needs to be different. For all the times that i cried, thinking about what i lost; my very bestfriend and other things,. Indeed, God is the best film director. I love my life! I am REALLY BREATHING tonight! 😭😭😭 I always thought that i am alone. But... this night told me that i am not!! There is someone who watches everything i do. Listens to every word i say. And understands every act i play. I couldn't find the word he deserves to make him feel appreciated. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 🥺💗 This is a friend you guys should look forward to. Who is always there. Even when they know that u dont notice their existence. Been there before you even get started,. Never stop to give moral supports, oh my i am touched!! 😭 seriously angels like this dont deserve us. Thank you. I hope i can do the same thi...

5 Jun 2020. Puasa 2/6 hari. 5.20 am. ..Teringat pulak Rasulullah kalau bersahur, dia berhenti bila tau, gap antara dia berhenti makan dengan azan subuh adalah 50 ayat al quran. :) Haiii semua. Harini mood lain so kita guna bahasa ibunda je la eh 🤪, tanda cinta akan bangsa & negara kan~ " He who doesn't love his country, has no faith "- Ertughrul  Ok. Macam kita semua tahu, 3 Jun yang lalu merupakan tarikh keramat dimana keputusan UPU bagi calon SPM 2019 keluar! Jadi, nak cerita nya sebelum isi UPU, banyak betul cabaran dan dugaannya 😂. Aku sampai berconsult dengan 12 orang kawan mak aku yang diorang ni kerjanya lecturer, cikgu, doktor, ahli korporat, orang surau dan lain2 sebab nak tanya pendapat. To be frank with you, siapa yang kenal aku, like mak aku, makcik aku, adik2 aku 😂, anis, naei, suhada, arina, ainul dan yang lain22222 tahu sangat aku ni clingey gilaaaaaa lepastu mengharapkan orang yang buat keputusan hahahahahahaahah aib nyaa. 🥺 Weh serius...

Ramadan 25 06.44 pagi 18 Mei. Eyyoooo 2020 is really something else! I can't believe i got so many time to spend and got to discover hell so many things! Like i was sooo useless before, i guess..without knowing im not the only one who should take the blame. We WERE WORKING OVER THE LIMIT. WE WERE SO INTO THE HUMAN TRADITION; get to work, get money, pay literally everything, overthink about our smells and much more hm.  I think this is what they called ' silver lining '. Eventhough I still abhor the cause of the Corona Virus from that Panda Land, but... what else can we do either than accept everything?! If you readers, one of the cause or the reason of the spread of this pandemic, DO LEAVE MY BLOG RIGHT NOW!!! STAY A THOUSAND MILES AWAY FROM ME, MY HOME, MY COUNTRY, AND MY PLANET. U GUYS HAVE DESTROYED EVERYHTING. WHAT MORE?? Back to the topic, i achieved so many things during the Restriction Movement Order (RMO) here, in Malaysia. Can't lie, i am a n...

7 Ramadan 2020, 1st day keluar rumah after 7 weeks terperangkap, Smiled at literally everyone. 🥰 Semalam, alhamdulillah, Umi told us that dah boleh keluar rumah berdua!!!! So i begged Umi to take me out, i can help angkat2 barang dapur, or apa2 je but please please please bring me see the light of the day.  " barang dapur pun dah habis, kalau dah boleh keluar berdua, ha jomlah esok pergi Ramly. " Sejak pkp ni, Papa je selalu beli barang dapur. Tapi since my father is working dengan something related to perhubungan, jadi masa PKP ni beliau sangat2 la diperlukan. Selamani, o/station 3 hari je, 3 hari kerja balik petang, and 1 hari cuti whole day (ya u might want to scream at me ha tengok pengorbanan sang ayah! ). Tapi PKP ni, dia kena o/station 4-5 hari and 1 hari cuti, 1 hari lagi balik time berbuka je & pergi kerja balik lepastu balik tengah malam. Disclaimer:  Cikgu2 al mahbuuuub, pengetua sekolah mahupun bekas pengetua sekolah, cikgu akademik mahupun cikgu d...

.. Weh belum start lagi entry nya tapi nak gelak jugak 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i dont know why but when it comes to asmak, she's literally my sunshine everyday sbb pikir muka dia je pun boleh gelak 😂😂. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,  7 Ramadan 2020.  So Naili just posted a video of her nieces and saying that her niece so lasak. Cakap pasal budak perempuan yang lasak ni, tak lain tak bukan, otak mesti teringat Asmak. 😂😂 Asmak ni kawan dari sekolah rendah, sampai sorga in shaa Allah. 😜 Ayah dia, cikgu kat sek kitaorg. dah anggap macam ayah sendiri dah. Sampai rumah dia pun, buat mcm rumah sendiri ekekekekek. 🤪 So cerita nya macam ni, masa darjah 4 dulu, was the very 1st time Asmak masuk sekolah and probably dalam hidup semua orang 🙄. Masa tu, aku dengar2 semua orang cakap budak baru tu degil, tak dengar cakap sebab tu ayah dia masukkan dekat sekolah kitaorg. Jadi masa Asmak masuk tu, aku tengok dia atas bawah, mati2 aku ingat dia lelaki 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂?...

2nd Ramadan, on a beautiful Dhuha, at pressure 60 pascal. Hello everyone. Today i want to share w you somewhat brand new sad, drama, horror & thriller story on Netflix. Kidding.  2 months ago, when there were nobody at home except this beautiful young lady named Rao-hayna and her little baby sister, bumped to her notorious psycho stalker when she didn't wear her spectacles!  It all started at 8.00 am. When Rao thought she should repay her parents for paying her school, by doing house chores. She washed the dishes, she cleaned the kitchen, she swept the maniac on the floor, she she she she she's EVERYTHING! ( disclaimer: but still not as good as her mother ) After preparing her baby sister the most scrumptious anchovies porridge, she suddenly felt her little stomach aching with no mercy. So she put her baby sister down and look straight at the kitchen toilet where people invest their businesses there successfully. But that look didn't stand for Rao even ...

3rd Ramadan, 26th of April, RMO 2020. Salam to you all generous people! First things first i want to apologise for it's been ages i don't write any single thing on my blog :,( . You may want to ask, " why you started a blog, dearest young lady? "  Well, to be frank with u i had a major tendency that my stories CAN change someone's life. Eventhough it's bad or wonderful, i seriously dont care about it. At all. I don't even feel ashamed to tell anything to the world. To me, my stories can be motivation for people out there. For them who's struggling. For them, who's surviving.  Then you may ask, " then why i still can't find what i seek of you in your blog, Raihana? "  Man i got no time to record all the events in my life but trust me I DO WANT TO! But thankful it's the RMO, i guess i got some times to write. :) Since i was little, i love exploring and discovering new things ( which at the end of the day, only then, i cou...

1st Jan 2020. New year, old u and new me. I can't believe How capable am i That when it comes to us I become restless And i am still the happiest How i made that?  -R, 17.